Something is shifting in you.
And everyone keeps calling it a problem.
It's not. It's probably the most honest you've been in a long damn time.
Remember when you used to be so tolerant, and patient, and helpful, and accepting...and lately it's all feeling like a little too much.
You built your business on someone else's blueprint and it's not really working for you. Maybe it did for a while, but you're realizing that it's suffocating you now. You're done bending over backwards to play the game to get the clients and want to create something that feels true and alive and yours.
I mean, let's face it. Your bullshit meter is maxed out.Your patience for things that were never actually yours is gone, and you're watching friendships shift and masks slip, and you're somewhere between terrified and quietly, privately relieved about all of it.
Because nobody tells you this part. The becoming, the unmasking, the slow return to who you've always been underneath it all, the outspoken rebel who dances to her own beat, who knows what she likes and says it with confidence? She got buried under decades of conforming and playing the game.
You're not losing your shit. You're returning to yourself, and your business is going to feel every bit of that, because it's the most honest mirror you'll ever look into besides parenting.
You need a map and someone who understands the curriculum to stand in the room with you while it does its work, and that's what we do here in small intimate containers.
You might Have Found Your Way here because:
Every time you bring more of yourself into your work you feel more alive than you have in years, and you have no idea what to do with that.
You're watching other people own their weirdness, their woo, their full selves, and it's working for them, and you're standing at the edge of that wondering if you're allowed...if it'll work for you, and if anyone will take you seriously on the other side of it.
You've built something, and it's working...on the surface, but you're not sure you built it for you. The thought of changing it feels like blowing up everything you worked for, even though staying feels like slowly disappearing, and you feel stuck.
You're not lost. You're just becoming more of yourself, and the old blueprint you're operating from doesn't work anymore.
There's nothing wrong with you.
You've been wearing a corset that kept you feeling acceptable but hasn't let you breathe in a long time, and somewhere along the way your body just stopped tolerating it.
There's a threshold most women hit in this season where the performance costs too much. Your patience runs thin, and the corset that was never yours to wear starts to feel unbearable, while everyone around you brushes it off, dismisses it, tells you it's just hormones and it gets worse before it gets better.
I'm going to call bullshit on that.
Yes, there are physical aspects to this season, and when we don't address the spiritual and identity piece underneath it we struggle, because what's actually happening isn't a malfunction, it's an invitation. Your body, your soul, every part of you that got buried under decades of performing is asking you to come back to the truth of who you actually are.
That's not a crisis. That's the invitation.
I see you. Because I've been in it too.
Not in the past tense, tidily resolved version, the real one, where you're still pulling back layers that were never yours, finding new edges of conditioning you didn't know were there, and learning what it means to stop performing and start being.
This work doesn't end, it evolves, and I know that because I'm in it with you, not standing on the other side of it waving you through, having forgotten what it feels like to be in it.
I'm Aypril. I help women drop the corset, return to the truth of who they actually are, embrace their weird and their woo, while building businesses and lives that work with them instead of against them.
You remember what was true before all the performing started.
This is where the map comes in.
Human Design is a system that shows you the curriculum you're here to move through in this life, and gives you a way back to yourself when you've gone off course.
It's not another way to limit you, but to remind you of your potential, your gifts, and normalize the challenges you've faced rather than make them wrong.
When you're in a season of unmasking and watching the old version of yourself fall away, having a map that says this is how you were always designed to be changes everything, and it stops feeling like falling apart and starts feeling like coming home.
This is the lens I use with every woman I work with, to help you understand your truth and return to your personal power.
Heretical Truths
These aren’t affirmations.
They’re permission slips. Clarity cues. Unlearning invitations for the ones building a different way.
“Strategy isn’t supposed to feel like self-abandonment.”“What you’re afraid of losing by doing it your way isn’t even yours to keep.”“If you have to numb yourself to sell it, it’s not the thing.”"You don't have to believe harder. You have to stop pretending."“You’re not too sensitive. You’re too honest to perform.”"The version of you that already knows — that's the one we're building from."“What you build from self-trust will always outlast what you build from fear.”"Manifesting from someone else's design is just hoping in disguise."“Life gets simpler when you stop living it for other people.”If you feel called out reading these, I'm calling you in.
Who You’re Working With
I'm Aypril Porter.
I work with the lonely heretics. The creatives and entrepreneurs who are tired of wearing masks that were never theirs, who are ready to stop letting the world decide who they should be.
I've been doing this work for over a decade, and I'm passionate about it because I live it, always peeling back another layer, always returning to myself, eternally curious about what's underneath.
I'm not afraid of the dark. Grief, anger, the uncomfortable stuff, it all gets a seat at the table here.
Ready to find your way back?
If you've been reading this thinking how does she know — LFG.
The Truth of You is a three session container where we use your Human Design chart as the map and your actual lived experience as the territory, no formulas, no prescribed path, just you, your design, and me, willing to sit with you in the unbecoming.
Wanna date me a little first? Start here.
Your free energy type playlist is the first taste of what it feels like when deconditioning gets to be something you actually enjoy, because sometimes the thing that breaks something open isn't a journal prompt, it's a song.
This Is What Happens When You Stop Performing.
“I built my business around industry standards, but they never felt right to me. Through Aypril’s support, I realized I could trust my own path. Not because she told me what to do, but because she held a safe and supportive space for me to remember how to trust myself again.
I am now building a business I love that doesn’t burn me out, and clients are showing up for my most exciting offers, even without heavy promotion.”
–1:1 Client S.M.
“To put into words, let alone a few short sentences of my experience working with Aypril is going to be next to impossible, but here goes! Aypril has taken me on quite the incredible journey of understanding and stepping into my true self, and loving myself again. Throughout our months working together she always held a safe space for me, and we worked together on so so much, which allowed me to grow in ways I never thought possible. Aypril beautifully intertwined human design and coaching! Looking back at myself from when we started to work together to now, I just can’t help but smile. All I can say is I genuinely feel like ME again! I’m forever grateful I reached out to Aypril, and the journey she took me on.”
— CHELSEA
“I hesitated to join another container after investing in one the year before that didn’t deliver. I had been promised access to the facilitator, but it always felt guarded and inaccessible. The advice I received felt rigid, like there was only one way to approach business.
Working with Aypril was completely different. She answered my questions, but more importantly, she asked me questions that helped me find my own truth. Since working with her, my income has consistently doubled, and often more, compared to before.”
— Group Container Participant, V.S.